It’s true—I’m not sure if this is really week 6, 7, or 8. I think this is week 8. Mostly. Probably. I have Zero confidence in saying that out loud though. I have serious concerns on my ability to maintain which day of the week it is, what homework is due, what have I turned in, and on a more frightening note—What I haven't even started yet! Yes, that is a very large concern,
Remember when Alice fell into the rabbit hole into an entirely different world—that’s where I am. Of that, I am 100% confident! There is no doubt in my mind I’ve fallen down a rabbit hole that surely I’ll pop out of in about 8 or 7 weeks, maybe 6? I don't know.
Here’s what I can tell you with confidence, I feel confident. Sure, I’ve booked 9, I think 9 (seriously, no more counting) pages of footnotes, the number of open tabs on my computer are so many (I'm not counting them), I’m afraid I’ll lose them at the most inopportune moment (don’t fret, I also have them saved in OneNote in the event of such a tragedy), and perhaps most surprisingly, my capstone is on track—shocking for someone who can’t truly tell you what day of the week it is, but that’s the point, isn't it?
If I lose track of the day of the week, but know where I am (mostly) in the process of my capstone, then I’m probably doing okay. Believing in myself at this moment, the final ‘X’ number of weeks dedicated towards one final capstone project, highlighting all the lessons learnt, the quizzes taken, the lectures listened to, and discussions participated in—it all comes down to this, and despite my fear, insecurity, and doubt—I know I am ready. Sure, this confidence will be out the window the next time I can’t remember a citation, or which format of blue booking is required for it; but, I’ll figure it out. And, if I can’t, Professor Townsend-Gard is there to call, and point me on the right path, or help me find which page of that darn little blue book to use to figure it out.
The past year and a half of work got me to this point, and I’m ready…
Mostly.
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